Saturday, July 30, 2016

A Shift In Consciousness.

2 am.
The rain falls; first slowly.
As the moment passes, the rain gets heavier, the moment gets heavier.
I feel the water weighing me down.
But I feel light, almost free.
Almost a sense of relief, but almost a burden at the same time.
The rain continues to fall.
I am in this moment.
I am within those droplets.
I am oblivious;
To sight.
To sound.
I do not see the lightening around me. I cannot hear the thunder. 
I am blind; unconscious.
But I feel everything.
I feel this moment.

Friday, June 3, 2016

Birthdays Are A Blessing!

I am slightly nervous as I begin this post, I’m not sure why. Post birthday feelings, or shall I say the "Birthday Blues,” a feeling I’ve managed to create and overwhelm myself with these past few days, as I hesitantly stride into another year. 

I mean, at the end of the day it’s just a number. So why am I getting so worked up?!? I get a little crazed around birthdays. I’m not sure what it is, okay that’s a lie, it’s that GIGANTIC feeling of getting older, which then creates something even BIGGER; getting old. Maybe I’m not ready. Of course I’m not ready. My reaction to birthdays, as of lately;

Getting older scares me. I'm no fan of birthdays; maybe its the attention, maybe the idea of getting older, or maybe its the idea of another forced celebration/occasion. Fuck, I can eat cake anytime, any day. I have this theory, this idea that the older I get, the more unattractive/dull/boring I become, which I know is ludicrous and ridiculously untrue. 
My husband's response: 1.) I need to get over myself (its true). 2.) That theory is a lie. 3.) I need to bother someone else with my meaningless problems. Ha! Okay, so maybe he's right in all three aspects, but at the end of the day, how we feel as individuals truly affects our outlook, our mood, our overall justification of life, even if it is meaningless and temporary. Eventually those feelings fade and everything works out. It has to. At the end of the day, we end up thinking "well that wasn't so bad." Then I found this, and everything made sense, and all that ridiculousness drifted away:

Your birthday can be a powerful reminder that, in fact, each and every day is a 'gift' you haven't asked for, and haven't earned, but you have it in your hands to make what you will of it.

Your birthday is an opportunity to remember that being alive is a prerequisite for doing anything, feeling anything, celebrating anything. Your life is the ultimate unsolicited 'gift'. You didn't ask for it. You didn't earn it. Some gifts are hard to accept, and life too can be hard to accept sometimes!

Today was good, no, it was amazing. I visited my past, reflected on my accomplishments and travels and proudly told myself, "You've done good so far." I received encouraging words from my Mom, family and friends. I am glad I make them proud. Along with Re, Autumn, my family and the many friends, people I've come across throughout my 31 years, this is exactly what I needed. So thank you to everyone who took the time to wish me a Happy Birthday. Birthdays are a blessing. 

Thank you. 

Sunday, May 22, 2016

Disney World Post #2 - Star Wars Mania!


Our little one is a bit Star Wars obsessed. I'm not sure where it came from or how it reached this far, but she loves everything Star Wars, maybe with the exception of Kylo Ren; depending on her mood, he seems to scare her.

On Day 2, we made our way to Hollywood Studios. Filled with excitement and anticipation, we had a day planned with ALOT of Star Wars activities, along with a few Fast Pass selections; Sing Along with Elsa and Anna, The Great Movie Ride and a Disney JR Character dining event (lunch) at Hollywood & Vine.

A few things about the pictures below:

  • Meet & greet with Kylo Ren: he remained in character, definitely not friendly or welcoming, which is why he is standing so far away from us. I was also chased out of the meet & greet by him as I was taking pictures on our way out. He raised his hand, we got scared and ran out laughing. 
  • Star Wars- The Adventure Continues, a great ride! Our scenario played out as if we were in the Millennium Falcon. I was fearful Autumn would get scared or cry, but she LOVED it. I, on the other hand, became nauseous. 
  • Jedi Training - Trials of the Temple - this experience was something Autumn had been waiting for, for a very long time. She battled the Seventh Sister, and used her force on Darth Vader and Kylo Ren. This little is serious about her force, she truly believes she has the force, sometimes using it on her daddy.  
  • Build your own Droid: customized by Autumn, she named him/her "JOYED the Droid." 
  • I added new Mickey ears to my collection; C-3PO, now with a total of 3. 

Friday, May 20, 2016

Disney World Post #1 - Disney World Polynesian Resort and Spirit of Aloha Luau Dinner Show!

Our fourth trip to Disney World, we celebrated Autumn's 5th Birthday. Our girl turned the BIG 5! We stayed at the Disney World Polynesian Resort, it happened by accident, but a good accident I might add. We opted for the Grand Floridian Resort & Spa, but at the time of booking, there was no availability. This will mark our third Disney World resort we've stayed at. Last year we resided at the Port Orleans - Riverside, you can view our trip/photos here, and in 2013 we stayed at the Grand Floridian Resort & Spa. We like to stay on Disney Property due to the many conveniences and benefits. Trips to Disney World can get chaotic and tiring, especially when traveling with children, for us, the resorts have provided faster and easy access to the parks with MANY additional perks!

  • Disney World's Magical Express; before our trip began, DW sent luggage tags via mail. When we arrived to the Orlando Airport (MCO), all we had do was scan our Magic Bands, hop on the Magical Express bus and head to our resort, avoiding baggage claim. Upon arrival, our luggage is automatically sent to our room. The buses are large, air conditioned and quite luxurious. There are TV's to keep the children/adults entertained on the way to the resort. 

  • Magic Bands. Magic Bands are genius, really, THEY ARE. Magic bands are your wallet, your resort room key, the master key to EVERYTHING Disney World. Anything and everything pertaining to your trip is linked into those magic bands. Magic Bands are your ticket entrance to all parks and rides, they also contain fast pass access, which if you stay in a Disney Resort, you get 60 day prior access to start making Fast Pass reservations. Magic Bands are water proof, so you can have them on you at all times. We never carried our wallets, money, ID's or debit/credit cards, we used our Magic Bands to pay for everything. Disney World will deliver your magic bands to your house about 30 days prior, via mail also. Photos taken at DW can also be linked via the My Photo Pass. 

  • Monorail/Transportation: Staying at the DW resorts, transportation is always readily available, and with staying at the Polynesian resort, we had access to the Monorail from the resort, which was convenient to accessing Magic Kingdom, Epcot and other resorts close by; The Grand Floridian Resort & Spa and the Contemporary resort.

  • Guests staying at certain Disney World resorts also have the benefit of enjoying EXTRA MAGIC hours to certain parks.  

Our first day was a "chill" day, the calm before the DW chaos. We arrived before noon, had lunch, took a short nap, enjoyed the pool and later attended the Spirit of Aloha Luau Dinner Show at the Polynesian resort. We spent a total of 6 days at Disney World, so we made sure we had at least one or two relax/chill/pool days, which I would HIGHLY recommend! 

The Spirit of Aloha Luau Dinner Show was everything I had hoped and anticipated, if not more. I reserved a few months prior as this would be Autumn's birthday dinner. The food was amazing! Entertainment was great and interactive! We had Category 2 seats, and we were seated in front of the stage. Our original reservation was for the 5:10 dinner show, but since our luggage had not arrived, the resort changed our reservation to the 8 o'clock showing. No big deal! I thought it worked out better for the night showing; a better showcase of the fire dancers. We were educated on the various dances, languages and cultures from the different Islands. Autumn and Re were brought up to the stage and there was also a moment for couples to share a slow dance together, we took advantage. 

Day 2, we made reservations for the Lilo and Stitch character breakfast in Ohana. Many of the dining experiences at Disney World are "all you care to eat," so food continues to be served until you've had enough. Along with Lilo and Stitch, Mickey and Pluto also make an appearance. Autumn really enjoyed the characters, she fell in love with Stitch. 

We definitely indulged in a lot of the food/drink areas around the resort; Pineapple Lanai, Captain Cooks, Ohana, Kona Cafe, Trader Sam's Grog Grotto, and the Barefoot Pool Bar. The tropical atmosphere was serene and exotic; you definitely get the "island/tropical" feel of everything, its almost as if you are on an island. 

I've shared a few photos from the Resort and Dining experiences. I will have another post soon with pictures from the Parks, characters, and of course: Star Wars Mania!

Photos Below:
DW Polynesian Resort 
Spirit of Aloha Luau Dinner Show